cyanide_anemptycity空城,Aurora_Sky
作词 : anemptycity空城
作曲 : anemptycity空城
编曲 : anemptycity空城
I''ve been practicing this goodbye
我一直在练习这场道别
maybe longer than you think
也许比你以为的还要久
every "see you tomorrow"
每一声“明天见”
was just me rehearsing in silence
都是我沉默的排练
you were building a future
你梦想中构筑的未来
I was already subtracting myself from it
我却早已将自己剥离
there''s no disaster, no one to blame
没有灾难发生 也没有人应被责备
just a quiet decision I never let you see
只是我不愿让你见到的 寂静决策
by the time you hear this
当你听到这些的时候
I''m not missing, I''m elsewhere
我并非失踪 我只是在别处
if I cross your mind
若我掠过你的脑海
let it be like static
就让它如静电一般
a flicker, a soft distortion, then air
稍闪即逝 轻微失真 融回空气
not a wound, not a lesson
不是一道疤痕 也不是一个教训
just a version of me that stood beside you
只是另一个 会站在你身边的我
and never said, she was already leaving
从未说出的 她早已在筹备逃离
and maybe that''s kinder than watching you fade in sorrow
也许这比眼睁睁看着你凋零在悲伤之中 更为仁慈
beautiful design of grace and vice
恩典与堕落的完美造物
I breathed you in
我将你吸入肺中
thinking this was oxygen
以为得到氧气
but it was cyanide
但却是氰化物
it was cyanide
但却是氰化物
there is a shape missing from my chest
我的胸膛之间 缺失了一片形状
a negative space where your arms used to rest
那是你手臂曾经安放的留白
gold dust turned to ash
金尘化为灰烬
slipped through my hands
从我手中溜走
through my fingers like sand
如沙般从指缝间流走
left without a trace
不留一丝踪迹
breathe too slowly, the air won''t stay
呼吸已然太慢 空气也不会留驻其间
skin hums under the weights
皮囊在重压之下发出嗡鸣
fall through noise I see your face
穿越噪音 我见到你的面庞
can''t feel
无法感受
can''t heal
无法治愈
I kept my hands where you could find them
我的双手仍在你能够找到它们的地方
like light on shallow waves
如浅波之上的微光
said nothing, let the nights repeat
一言不发 只让这长夜遍遍重复
until the blue felt safe
直至忧郁的深蓝 也让人感到安全
it wasn''t peace
那并非平静
it was numbness
只是麻木
dressed up as mercy
被你伪装成了仁慈
you led me deep just to let go
你引我走向深海 只为了放手
I swallowed the ocean
我吞下汪洋
just to keep your secrets dry
只想让你的秘密依旧干燥
this pressure is the only thing keeps me breathing
这重压 反而是让我继续呼吸的唯一依靠
breathe too slowly, the air won''t stay
呼吸已然太慢 空气也不会留驻其间
skin hums under the weights
皮囊在重压之下发出嗡鸣
fall through noise I see your face
穿越噪音 我见到你的面庞
can''t feel
无法感受
can''t heal
无法治愈
I can''t feel
我无法感受
can''t heal
无法治愈
you burn under my skin
你在我的皮肤之下灼烧
can''t feel
无法感受
can''t heal
无法治愈
you burn under my skin
你在我的皮肤之下灼烧着
I''m still holding
我仍在
I''m still holding my breath
我仍在屏息
to numb my feelings
只为麻木我的感受
to fill the hole in my chest
只为填补心中空洞
I hold my breath to erase my memory
我屏住呼吸 只为擦去我的回忆
you cut off the line
你切断了联系
to hide your guilt from me
只想对我隐藏你的愧疚
you cut off the line
你划清了界限
to hide your guilt
只想隐藏你的愧疚
anemptycity空城：这首歌的灵感，源于回避型人格在亲密关系中的矛盾角色。在他的视角里并无恶意，只是以自认为妥当的方式告别，却在无形中给对方造成伤害。正如曲名《Cyanide氰化物》，看似平静无害，无色无味，却带着致命毒性。
波罗猫与海鸥心：灵气十足、棱角鲜明、光芒万丈
Aurora_Sky777：很开心feat，唱了两段人声
AAR0Z：还真是极光天
JZYD-V：qwq